In at least one of my romantic relationships, I fell into the trap of engaging in both emotional affairs and physical affairs. The problem (aside from one extremely dumb incident of physical cheating I much regret) was not touching someone else’s skin. The issue I found emerging was allowing someone else to touch my heart.

One truth that’s not so self-evident is that not all affairs are created equal. In fact, I find I can draw clear lines between affairs of the heart and those of the flesh. They can be separate or they can be one and the same, but they are both equally damning.

I often struggle with the idea of commitment. And, to a point, I never understood the concept of monogamy. In fact, sometimes I still don’t. The idea of commitment and settling down with one person — forever, or even for a long, long time — scares me.

Permanency, aside from my tattoos, is much lacking across most of my life — from where I’ve lived to the relationships I’ve been in — and out of. But, despite my hesitation to embrace commitment on an intellectual level, I know first-hand how dreadful affairs can be, because I have been both betrayer and betrayed.

We know what a physical affair is, making it easy to identify when someone is “cheating.” In most monogamous relationships, displays of physical affection or sexual relations with someone other than your partner are proof of an affair.

The standard can vary, depending on the couple, but affectionate, physical, and any type of sexual contact with anyone other than your partner gets labeled as cheating. But what about emotional affection and emotional intimacy?

This is where it becomes more difficult and often confusing. Emotional affairs and attachments are murky and gray and are not as clear-cut as one single action.

So, here are the six main warning signs you're having an emotional affair.

1. You look to someone else for attention and validation.

If you are in a relationship, you shouldn’t need or want another person to validate your emotional needs at an intimate level. The keyword there is intimate.

I love my friends and I have great friends of both sexes, but the support they provide for me is different than the support my partner provides. Even when interacting with my female friends, these connections are not crossing the line of validation or providing me the attention I should be receiving from my partner.

If you are in a relationship, you shouldn’t need to turn to someone besides your partner, especially someone attractive to you, as a means of feeling validation. You shouldn’t need to feel beautiful/important/significant, only because someone else tells you that you are.

Even if your relationship is struggling, this isn’t a sign to begin finding attention elsewhere. It is a sign of needing to fix things, instead of opening up to others or a sign to move on.

Lacking emotional validation in your current relationship is not an excuse to find it elsewhere. Relying on another for the validation your partner once gave you is a slippery spiral.

2. You're hiding relationships from your partner.

I do not believe couples should share all their communications with each other. I don’t believe in reading your partner's text, emails, or messages. But, there should be lines of respect.

If you have to hide your interactions with another because of what you are saying or doing during these interactions, that is when it crosses the line into the murky area. If you have to hide from your partner the conversation you are having with another, whether it be deleting conversations for fear your partner would see them or hiding an entire period of hanging out, this is one of the signs that you're having an emotional affair.

I understand the need for privacy and sometimes, we say things to our friends in frustration or question our relationships. But even when we vent, we should be venting things we are willing, though perhaps reluctant, to say to our partner.

If you have to hide your interactions with another, you have one of two reasons. Either your relationship with your partner is unhealthy or your relationship with the other person is unhealthy. I’m not saying you need to know everything your partner is saying or vice versa, but you shouldn’t need to hide the interactions you are having with another.

3. You have inappropriate communication with others.

In emotional affairs, our words and hearts are where we see lines being crossed. For warnings, pay attention to your language with another potential romantic or relationship interest.

For emotional affairs, I would challenge the following types of correspondence:

• Flirting
• Talking about missing someone on an intimate level
• Romanticizing ideas of what a relationship could look like
• Sharing information about your current relationship your partner would not want you to share (talking about sexual frustrations)
• Constantly tearing down your partner to another

In situations of romantic affairs, it can certainly extend past these basic lines of communication, but these are the first of the few big dangerous conversations you would want to avoid having.

As with many other aspects, it comes down to the idea of what type of interactions are you having with someone, and would you be willing to have these interactions in front of your current partner?

4. You think of rekindling old romantic relationships.

Rekindling past relationships is a huge no and one that extends across a few of the other taboos. I do not believe it is bad to have a friendship with an ex, but you should be careful what this friendship resembles.

If you start to cross the lines of relying on your ex for emotional intimacy or if you start treating them like a partner again, these behaviors are not fair to your current partner. When you rely on someone you used to be intimate with — whether physically or emotionally — for support, it is a sign that you are cheating on an emotional level.

5. You have feelings for someone who isn't your partner.

If you find yourself admitting you have feelings for someone, chances are you’re in serious danger of crossing the line into an emotional affair. And if you are pursuing a chance at those feelings, you’ve crossed it.

We cannot help that sometimes we find other people attractive. In life, we feel drawn to many people aside from our partners. This is normal. The question is: how do we act on those feelings? There is a difference between feeling you are connected to someone on a deeper level and letting this connection develop.

Think of it this way: in the world of romance, we are like ships at sea. You are going to see many lighthouses, but in monogamy, you only rely on one to guide you. If you start relying on multiple lighthouses, you are going to find yourself torn.

It isn’t about noticing that someone else might be emotionally compatible. It is starting to make yourself open to this person. It is okay to see the spark, but don’t chase that flame.

6. You receive reciprocation.

In all of these situations, there is a degree of reciprocation. You cannot control what another person is doing. If someone is constantly flirting with you or attempting to bring up a relationship with you, this is one thing. The real danger arises when you reciprocate.

If someone were to kiss you without your permission, that is a form of assault. If someone is going to make emotional advances on you, let’s say an ex who is pining away or a person you were friendly with, but with whom you don’t feel a connection, that’s not an affair.

An affair features both reciprocation and repetition. It is when you start to show these feelings of attention back when you start to encourage and welcome them, and most of all, when you initiate them, that the emotional affair erupts into full bloom.

Here is my litmus test for whether or not you are engaging in an emotional affair.

For me, it is a simple way of how I determine what my interactions should look like when I am in a romantic relationship and I am building interpersonal relationships with others. Would I be comfortable engaging in this behavior if my partner were watching? It is that simple.

If my partner were next to me, would I feel comfortable saying the things I was saying? Would I be comfortable with them knowing what I was talking about? Would I be comfortable with them watching my interaction with another person?

Emotional affairs extend beyond simple friendship. They reach the point where you know you would be uncomfortable doing this behavior in front of a partner or if they were doing this with another person.

Harboring feelings about your partner and not telling them is a dangerous thing. From frustrations to complaints, you should be willing to talk to your partner. It is not always the prettiest, but it does help you grow. 

The best relationships I know are the open ones. When we start hiding our relationships with others from our partners, especially with people we begin forming an emotional connection to, we are crossing into the gray area of an emotional affair. 

If you give someone the privilege of touching your heart, you should be careful about opening that door to others. Just take a moment and think about whether you’d like your partner to open that door to someone other than you.